IT’S CALLED AGING !!!

I really do wish I could keep up like everyone else , I feel like I have let so many down..Yea it Me ,tell it like it is , but a heart of gold , So much I want to do and join in , but its so hard just to keep up on me ,, Is that a bad thing , I guess probably not for most , after all I am in training trying to take care of me first ,, but truthfully it is so foreign , Its hard ,I actually have to pretend I am doing for someone else , sike myself out ,,,,With my health seemingly failing , including my vision teeth bones , I have to say looks are deceiving esp some days , some days i look 10 to15 yrs older ,,,

 

IT’S CALLED AGING !!

Its definitely a learning curve,unlike my injury years ago . Aging just sneaks on in, you cant help but wander though , what the heck next,, then some days its like um damn i feel GOOOD,,lol I have also learned that so much determines how we feel ,and especially after 50. Heck I thought having a monthly was hell ,, oh no when you stop producing all those things in your body that kept it young vibrant and well lubricated ,, like joints and moisture in your eyes and hair skin , yea nails ,now that is not even a joke . Your skin thins and your allergic to stuff you have never been allergic to , and thats not only because of the foods being contaminated , its also your body doesnt produce even the propper enzimes to break down the food and get it in the cells…. oh la la la di da,, right ! The Point is we all look back and wish we had taken better care of ourselves, and as we age we worry about it more , yet some have fallen apart so rapidly its pure hell catching back up.

So listen up , if your reading this and aint fighting to keep up with your own self , kudos ,, but please be patient with others because eventually you too will be battling , age , memory or health or something that is very hard to comprehend or keep up with yourselves ,unless you die before that time.

I think aging is not like it used to be thought of , I sure saw my parents health go down , but my grand parents ,well they just didnt seem to age in my eyes until 70’s, I really think its because of the microwave erra,,, We want it all right NOW,, No resting ,,Taking supplements to keep up with the job , home, family , friends, hobbies,, but i don’t understand it all.

I truly wish we could take what we know now and say go back to the 60s and try again ,,,but that’s wishful thinking , I think our generation and if there’s a next , is dying to soon way to soon, and my own personal opinion is because ,we are not governed by ourselves but by society , keeping up with the jones mentality,, no core family values , and no morals , all work no play ,, dont like it f off , walk out , society, no one held accountable , because not many are in the home as a loving nurturing example of parenting,,Parenting is dictatorship, and the children are only doing as they SEE… AND THEN CRITICISED FOR DOING IT THEMSELVES , AND ITS ALL THEY KNOW ,

When will we stop fighting each other and start leaning on each other as communities and villages ..Taking care of our own ? No instead its a THROW AWAY WORLD..

SO here’s something to ponder.. is it better to have dementia and be lost in your own mind by yourself , or have all your wits yet be so broken down and tossed to the side , to sit and wait for someone to help you go to the bathroom or open a can of food for you ,, Beg for a little help yet your family has no time for you , the kids mock you and avoid you like the plague , because video games and tv and getting rich is more important than another family member’s life !!!!

 

So you know I love to get you thinking,,I see so many kids no adults have family members broken down and right there close to them and if the parents are lucky they might get a phone call if they’re over 70 and home alone ,,,,are you kidding me !!!!!! They sit at their friends house all day long cooking and playing and partying , while mom ,dad , are sitting in the same spot they were this morning…

I don’t know about you BUT ILL TAKE DEMENTIA ANY DAY!!

just remember ONE DAY , YOU TOO WILL FACE THAT WHAT YOUR PARENTS ARE ,, ITS CALLED AGING !!

HOW DO WE LEARN? HOW ARE WE TAUGHT?

IT IS NEVER TO LATE TO LEARN ….

i HAVE FOUND SO MANY MANY PEOPLES PAGES ARE NOT WHAT THEY SEEM,,THEY AGREE WITH YOU ONLY TO BE ABLE TO SPLASH THEIR HATE IN BETWEEN THEIR POST NOW THAT YOUR FRIENDS ,, PLEASE BE CAREFUL WHO YOU AD TO YOUR FRIENDS LIST,,REMEMBER THE CLICHE’ WOLVES IN SHEEP’S CLOTHING, I MYSELF HAVE BEEN FOOLED SO MANY TIMES BECAUSE I DO WANT TO BE AN EXAMPLE NOT ALL TALK BUT EXAMPLE OF DOING AND GETTING THROUGH THE BATTLES THAT WE MAY HAVE IN COMMON. I TRY TO BE AS VULNERABLE AS I CAN BE IN HOPES TO BRING OUT THE VULNERABILITIES OF OTHERS SO THAT FEAR IS NOT AN ACTION BUT MERELY A THOUGHT , FOR I HAVE SEVERE PTSD. AND ANXIETIES THAT COME IN A FLASH , THAT I EVEN FORGET WHAT I WAS DOING AT THAT MOMENT,, THE MOST UNDERSTANDING PEOPLE I KNOW ARE CHILDREN BECAUSE THEY DO NOT JUDGE THEY ARE EAGER TO HELP AND LOVE YOU BACK TO YOURSELF.

CHILDREN CALL IT AS THEY SEE IT AND SO MANY ARE YELLED AT ,, DON’T SAY THAT , WHEN IT’S ONLY THE TRUTH AS THEY SEE IT ,, THEY ARE WHIPPED INTO THINKING THEY SHOULD HOLD BACK SPEAKING AGAINST HATE THEY SEE, ITS SO UNFAIR TO THEIR LITTLE MINDS , WHEN THEY ARE SHAPED TO BELIEVE BEING UGLY IS A SECRET NO ONE WANTS REVEALED , THEY ARE TAUGHT SHAME , THEY ARE MOLDED INTO ADULT THINKING AND TAKES AWAY THEIR INNOCENCE. THEY ARE TYPICALLY DOPED UP TO KEEP THEIR THOUGHTS AT BAY, NOT KNOWING HOW TO REALLY THINK FOR THEMSELVES OR ARE MOLDED TO THINK THEIR THOUGHTS ARE WRONG AND THEREFORE THEIR IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THEMSELVES , WHILE ALL ALONG IT WAS THOSE WHO WERE THEIR EXAMPLES IN LIFE WERE WRONG YET REFUSE TO LOOK DEEP WITHIN THEMSELVES BEFORE CORRECTING WHAT THEY REACT TOO BY THE CHILD,,,, CHILDREN ARE OUR EXAMPLES OF INNOCENCE AND lOVE BUT WE CONTINUALLY SHAME THEM FOR BEING JUST THAT ,, HONEST AND INNOCENT .. OUR PLACE IS TO TEACH THEM TO CONTROL THEMSELVES AND TO SORT THROUGH THEIR OWN EMOTIONS , NOT TO TELL THEM WHAT TO THINK , ASK THEM IF THEY KNOW BETWEEN RIGHT AND WRONG , ASK THEM WHY THEY THINK THAT AWAY AND TEACH THEM TO THINK HOW THEY CAN SEARCH FOR INNER TRUTHS ,, IF YOU TELL SOMEONE LONG ENOUGH TO SHUT UP AND SIT DOWN ,, TRUST ME THEY WILL NEVER WANT TO STAND UP NOR SPEAK FOR THEMSELVES LATER IN LIFE… YET IF YOU LET THEM ACT OUT IN ANGER AND NEVER TEACH THEM TO SIT IN SILENCE HOW WILL THEY EVER LEARN TO CALM THEMSELVES WITHOUT AN CRUTCH .WE CONSTANTLY INFLICT OUR CHILDREN WITH OUR OWN BIASED OPINIONS NOT LETTING THEM SEARCH FOR THEIR OWN ,, THEY ONLY KNOW AND ACT ACCORDING TO WHAT YOU YOURSELF HAVE TAUGHT THEM EVEN WHEN YOU DIDN’T MEAN FOR THEM TO UNDERSTAND ,, MEMORIES SERVE THEM SOMEWHERE DOWN THE ROAD , THIS IS WHAT MY MOM OR DAD WOULD DO ,, BUT THEY HAVE KNOW TRUTH IN THEIR OWN IDENTITY,, IT IS SHAPED BY EVERYTHING THAT IS PLACED INTO MEMORIES,,AND THEN YOU WONDER WHERE YOU WENT WRONG,,,,,IF YOU SHOVE THEM IN FRONT OF A TV OR A VIDEO GAME ,INSTEAD OF TAKING THE TIME TO LET THEM SEARCH THROUGH WHAT THEY HAVE SEEN HEARD OR TAUGHT EVEN ELSEWHERE ,, HOW CAN YOU POSSIBLY THINK YOU ARE RIGHT , WHEN YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IS TRULY IN THEIR MINDS,,,, UNTIL ONE DAY IT’S TOO LATE.

EVERYONE WANTS TO BE HEAD YET THEY FAIL TO RULE THEMSELVES,,,EVERYONE THINKS THEY ARE RIGHT YET THEY HAVE NEVER SEEN NOR HEARD THE WHOLE STORY OR EVEN BOTH SIDES ,,,ITS BECAUSE WE ALL WANT A RESOLUTION TO THE PROBLEM IMMEDIATELY, BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO TIME , YOU ARE STRESSED AND IN A HURRY , ONLY TO LOOK BACK AND SEE YOU BROUGHT 99 PERCENT OF IT ON YOURSELF, A HAND ME DOWN OF TRADITIONS ……DOES ANYONE THINK FOR THEMSELVES? IT’S OKAY TO DISAGREE , IT’S ALSO OKAY TO LOOK FOR NEW SOLUTIONS YOU MAY NOT BLAME OTHERS  BUT YOU CAN CHANGE THE WAY YOU THINK NOW THAT LIGHTS HAVE SHOWN YOU THE FILTH HIDDEN IN THE CORNERS….

Please forgive me , my visions are not so good and no i’m no editor, i’m just hoping to share the things deep within my conscience in hopes to stir others to think for themselves and create who they truly want to be , to face our fears together united we stand but judgement is always alone…

True leaders think for themselves and die alone there is only one heart beating in that shell of yours and only one soul that leaves,, therefore yes you die alone, when the soul leaves your body none can go with you the journey is your own…

 I have found that what i thought and think are curses or tragedy of not doing what i really thought i wanted to do in life has been my biggest Blessings…. to be alone in my own thinking and not a follower of everyone else, leaves me to think for myself , though its not always easy , actually never is , but the battles and lessons are better then anyone could teach me.. I may not have the body the riches of others but i have free will to THINK !!!