Sharing My True inspiration

You know I have shared with you my family of Love and Inspiration many times, I have to tell you while fighting so many things in my life right now, for instance ive been laid up all day insisting if I just rest I can get the feeling back in my leg, I not only fight with finances fears of anxiety ptsd My health. I continue to take inventory of my delimas of tragedy of my self and this around me.is roomate family & friends. I also take Pride in saying I would not of made it this far without Bryant & Jenny #McGill and there fantastic wisdom of SELF acceptance & SELF LOVE.
I can honestly say that I believe they are my lol guardian angels to remind myself I am WORTHY of SELF LOVE..
When fighting your daily battles within your mind a consistent self tally Is being created. Though you may not be aware of it yet it is there collecting data of what you don’t want and what you do. For instance my pain keeps my mind so busy at times of what worked in relieving said pain or pressure before and what I’m not willing to go through again or what I’m now willing to try. Now saying this I realise many of you are in excellent health or wealth and yet you too are contemplating what is it that I really want or don’t want.
We are the same though we battle on different levels of #SELF AWARENESS!
Creating things in our lives things we want and bringing in things we don’t. I myself am constantly creating ways to battle pain and sickness yet struggling with my self awareness because it is battling with what I’m trying to ignore..YIKES..REALITY CHECK HERE! Therefore bringing in everything I don’t want has been really me accepting less then or now creating and bringing in an overwhelming amount of failure messages storing up data daily of the words I have spoken.
Too many times I have crossed this same bridge in life though in a different state year time in my life. Falling into the same traps and wandering ‘ How In Gods Name Do I Get Here! You Too?
I can tell you it is PURE #FOCUS on #Myself at least until I am able to be totally honest with myself in all areas of my life.not just worries. Fear and insecurity. I cannot change what I’m not willing to #accept.
We all say we have overcome battles that have returned over and over. Yet we never think of them as victories. No our self data we have collected over the years have told us they failures because we are at battle again. Over and over we continue to believe the self talk. Our own personal data is what destroys our #Dreams. Our wishes our Focus is Altered by OUR INNER VOICE.
I cannot tell you how many times my ptsd has been completely #SELF #SABATOGE.
BOY OH BOY..IM EATING CROW HERE!
MS TAMMY ?!? Queen of Thinking positive. Say something positive! Find the good in Everything..Yikes…haha self delusion.? No #self wisdom!!!
We are our worst nightmare! We create our lives from everything we take in. Not only what we eat but what we see who and what we look at daily. The self loathing when things dont work out the way we expected.
But..I know first hand how fast you can be left in totally darkness where nothing comes to mind in how to get out. Fear is my silent killer..YES I JUST SAID THAT!
FEAR .FEAR.FEAR.😱 UGGG
How many times does fear direct you away from your goals? Fear collects data for good reasons like dont touch the fire the fear of being burned will quickly remind you in a situation where needed to bring you to #Safety. Ahhh. I like that word.
Safety is I think the core or fear..hmmm What do you think?
Listen up..Im not here to judge anyone In here to share and implement and challenge you to Think. I myself have been battling just that. Thinking are you with me here is awesome its a God given gift as is Fear. But……for what? Life is throwing so much at you that you are running through life living others dreams. Yet in extremes we all FEAR the consequences and therefore try to create a barrier so that we are protected from being hurt…Now you know this is hitting home as I write.
Too many times our wires get crossed and because in in constant motion and usually that motion is to create comfort and constantly shielding our selves from being hurt and collecting battle scars we talk about and share eagerly as trophies yet we litterally have piled on those trophies you know the scars that almost killed you! Oh and are still trying to kill you and ALL YOUR DREAMS. WELL LISTEN UP WAMMY haha yes this is for me…..they are also #VICTORIES..GOSH if it werent for Bryant and Jenny and their sharing #simplereminders & BeRoyal @ Royal society, I would never be truly inspired.

OUCH! oh c’mon, sure my Christian background has inspired me my love for Jesus. But that too has caused so much anxiety for me I cannot tell you how many times I have litterally BEAT MY SELF DOWN because I feel (self judgement data) or think(overly thinking I’m never gonna please Christ) brought on by severe judgement of leaders in high places, I refuse to call church. Anyways just these people alone have been my go to for prayers encouragement and self awareness by just sharing what they Love.
So many times when I did not see not one person in say several months no phone calls from anyone to check on me no family visits unless I made the effort to go to see or reach out to. I felt I was and still feel at times in a prison of pain that is the director of my life. Oh blah blah blah.. Seriously I can say my mind is always always inspired and gifted wisdom and magical treats😜 that present logic and little live bites in the ARSE occasionally to help get me off my self disruption or collusion or pity party.
It Boils down to this… They are not gods nor do I worship them. THEY ARE TRULY DOWN TO EARTH HONEST PEOPLE THAT STRUGGLE LIKE YOU AND I … THEY HAVE WANTS NEEDS DESIRES FEARS HOPES AND DILLUSIONS LIKE ALL OF US, BUT THIER TRANSPARENCY CEACKS ME UP CUS. WE HAVE BEEN TAUGHT OUR WHOLE LIVES DELLUSIONAL BULL CRAP.. OOPS SORRY FOCUS TAMMY FOCUS… ANYWAYS COME JOIN ME ABD SOME OF I BELIEVE GODS ANGELS IN THE ROYAL SOCIETY..I PROMISE YES PROMISE YOU WILL FIND THE LIVE YOU HAVE SO DESIRED AND GUIDANCE TO YOUR OWN PERSONAL COACH INSPRIRATION OR SHOULD I SAY DOSE OF REALITY. CUS LISTEN UP FOLKS. THE WORLD IS NOT WHAT YOU SEE…ITS WHAT YOU DONT SEE! DONT LET FEAR BE YOUR ONLY COMPASS!
I MAY NOT BE ABLE TO RESPOND TO EVERYONE BUT I SURE DO. SEE YOU AND APPRECIATE YOUR TIME YOUR LOVE YOUR STORIES AND YIUR INSPIRATION AND OH YES YES THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS….GIVE THESE PEOPLE A CHANCE YOU DONT HAVE TO AGREE BUT IN TIME YOU WILL SEE ALL THEY ARE DOING IN LOVING OTHERS THE BEST WAY THEY [THEY] CAN..
GOD BLESS ALL OF US…SHARE THE LOVE THATS OUR WEAPON AGAINST HATE😘💘😇 MS TAMMY W LIVINGSTON