Sharing My True inspiration

You know I have shared with you my family of Love and Inspiration many times, I have to tell you while fighting so many things in my life right now, for instance ive been laid up all day insisting if I just rest I can get the feeling back in my leg, I not only fight with finances fears of anxiety ptsd My health. I continue to take inventory of my delimas of tragedy of my self and this around me.is roomate family & friends. I also take Pride in saying I would not of made it this far without Bryant & Jenny #McGill and there fantastic wisdom of SELF acceptance & SELF LOVE.
I can honestly say that I believe they are my lol guardian angels to remind myself I am WORTHY of SELF LOVE..
When fighting your daily battles within your mind a consistent self tally Is being created. Though you may not be aware of it yet it is there collecting data of what you don’t want and what you do. For instance my pain keeps my mind so busy at times of what worked in relieving said pain or pressure before and what I’m not willing to go through again or what I’m now willing to try. Now saying this I realise many of you are in excellent health or wealth and yet you too are contemplating what is it that I really want or don’t want.
We are the same though we battle on different levels of #SELF AWARENESS!
Creating things in our lives things we want and bringing in things we don’t. I myself am constantly creating ways to battle pain and sickness yet struggling with my self awareness because it is battling with what I’m trying to ignore..YIKES..REALITY CHECK HERE! Therefore bringing in everything I don’t want has been really me accepting less then or now creating and bringing in an overwhelming amount of failure messages storing up data daily of the words I have spoken.
Too many times I have crossed this same bridge in life though in a different state year time in my life. Falling into the same traps and wandering ‘ How In Gods Name Do I Get Here! You Too?
I can tell you it is PURE #FOCUS on #Myself at least until I am able to be totally honest with myself in all areas of my life.not just worries. Fear and insecurity. I cannot change what I’m not willing to #accept.
We all say we have overcome battles that have returned over and over. Yet we never think of them as victories. No our self data we have collected over the years have told us they failures because we are at battle again. Over and over we continue to believe the self talk. Our own personal data is what destroys our #Dreams. Our wishes our Focus is Altered by OUR INNER VOICE.
I cannot tell you how many times my ptsd has been completely #SELF #SABATOGE.
BOY OH BOY..IM EATING CROW HERE!
MS TAMMY ?!? Queen of Thinking positive. Say something positive! Find the good in Everything..Yikes…haha self delusion.? No #self wisdom!!!
We are our worst nightmare! We create our lives from everything we take in. Not only what we eat but what we see who and what we look at daily. The self loathing when things dont work out the way we expected.
But..I know first hand how fast you can be left in totally darkness where nothing comes to mind in how to get out. Fear is my silent killer..YES I JUST SAID THAT!
FEAR .FEAR.FEAR.😱 UGGG
How many times does fear direct you away from your goals? Fear collects data for good reasons like dont touch the fire the fear of being burned will quickly remind you in a situation where needed to bring you to #Safety. Ahhh. I like that word.
Safety is I think the core or fear..hmmm What do you think?
Listen up..Im not here to judge anyone In here to share and implement and challenge you to Think. I myself have been battling just that. Thinking are you with me here is awesome its a God given gift as is Fear. But……for what? Life is throwing so much at you that you are running through life living others dreams. Yet in extremes we all FEAR the consequences and therefore try to create a barrier so that we are protected from being hurt…Now you know this is hitting home as I write.
Too many times our wires get crossed and because in in constant motion and usually that motion is to create comfort and constantly shielding our selves from being hurt and collecting battle scars we talk about and share eagerly as trophies yet we litterally have piled on those trophies you know the scars that almost killed you! Oh and are still trying to kill you and ALL YOUR DREAMS. WELL LISTEN UP WAMMY haha yes this is for me…..they are also #VICTORIES..GOSH if it werent for Bryant and Jenny and their sharing #simplereminders & BeRoyal @ Royal society, I would never be truly inspired.

OUCH! oh c’mon, sure my Christian background has inspired me my love for Jesus. But that too has caused so much anxiety for me I cannot tell you how many times I have litterally BEAT MY SELF DOWN because I feel (self judgement data) or think(overly thinking I’m never gonna please Christ) brought on by severe judgement of leaders in high places, I refuse to call church. Anyways just these people alone have been my go to for prayers encouragement and self awareness by just sharing what they Love.
So many times when I did not see not one person in say several months no phone calls from anyone to check on me no family visits unless I made the effort to go to see or reach out to. I felt I was and still feel at times in a prison of pain that is the director of my life. Oh blah blah blah.. Seriously I can say my mind is always always inspired and gifted wisdom and magical treats😜 that present logic and little live bites in the ARSE occasionally to help get me off my self disruption or collusion or pity party.
It Boils down to this… They are not gods nor do I worship them. THEY ARE TRULY DOWN TO EARTH HONEST PEOPLE THAT STRUGGLE LIKE YOU AND I … THEY HAVE WANTS NEEDS DESIRES FEARS HOPES AND DILLUSIONS LIKE ALL OF US, BUT THIER TRANSPARENCY CEACKS ME UP CUS. WE HAVE BEEN TAUGHT OUR WHOLE LIVES DELLUSIONAL BULL CRAP.. OOPS SORRY FOCUS TAMMY FOCUS… ANYWAYS COME JOIN ME ABD SOME OF I BELIEVE GODS ANGELS IN THE ROYAL SOCIETY..I PROMISE YES PROMISE YOU WILL FIND THE LIVE YOU HAVE SO DESIRED AND GUIDANCE TO YOUR OWN PERSONAL COACH INSPRIRATION OR SHOULD I SAY DOSE OF REALITY. CUS LISTEN UP FOLKS. THE WORLD IS NOT WHAT YOU SEE…ITS WHAT YOU DONT SEE! DONT LET FEAR BE YOUR ONLY COMPASS!
I MAY NOT BE ABLE TO RESPOND TO EVERYONE BUT I SURE DO. SEE YOU AND APPRECIATE YOUR TIME YOUR LOVE YOUR STORIES AND YIUR INSPIRATION AND OH YES YES THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS….GIVE THESE PEOPLE A CHANCE YOU DONT HAVE TO AGREE BUT IN TIME YOU WILL SEE ALL THEY ARE DOING IN LOVING OTHERS THE BEST WAY THEY [THEY] CAN..
GOD BLESS ALL OF US…SHARE THE LOVE THATS OUR WEAPON AGAINST HATE😘💘😇 MS TAMMY W LIVINGSTON

Is the growing Economy killing off the sick/mental health. Where’s the Humanity in this?

ADVERTISEMENT TO BUY Is WAY BIGGER THEN ANY ADVERTISING FOR CHANGE IN THE MEDICAL SYSTEM
Sick people are treated like animals. We have to do better getting people the proper medical @nd Mental help so they can help themselves…

CHURCHES MUST STEP UP AND HELP.. STOP TRYING TO REACH EVERYONE BUT THOSE RIGHT THERE IN THIER OWN NEIGHBOR HOOD.. I KNOW GOD INTENDED FOR THIS.. NOT GLUTTONY AND GREED AND SELF INDULGENCE… CAN WE MAKE THIS A LAW…
THIS CITY IS AWESOME AND GROWING BUT SO ARE THE SICK & THE LOST…..
ALL I HEAR IS UMMM.. WE DON’T DO THAT HERE.. UM TRY SUCH AND SUCH… IT’S BULL CRAP SENDING THE SICK ON A WILD GOOSE CHASE WHERE THEY END UP ON DRUGS, THE STREETS, THEN HOMELESS AND EMPTY, HUNGRY MOST OF ALL SUICIDAL.. WHERE IS THE LOVE… ALL HOSPITALS AND CLINICS SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED TO SEND THE SICK OUT WITH OUT TRUE HELP AND ANSWERS OTHER THEN I DON’T KNOW OR TRY HERE….. THERE ARE BILLIONS COMING IN FOR GROWTH YET O ZERO FOR HELPING THE SICK… OH TRUST ME… I KNOW… I GAVD UP ON THE SYSTEM AFTER THEM CONSTANTLY HANDING OUT DRUGS THAT EVENTUALLY AS AND LITTERALLY HARMED MY HEART. LUNGS & INTESTINES AND LESIONS ON SPINE AND BRAIN… THEN BEING TOLD I’M SEEKING DRUGS WHEN MY FACE WAS READY TO POP WITH INFECTION FROM A BAD TOOTH.. YET FINDING A DENTIST TI REMOVE I WS LEFT WITH NERVE DAMAGE.. SO YEA DOG VETS TREAT ANIMALS MUCH BETTER AND HAVE WAY MORE COMPASSION… THIS IS THE REASON I HAVE SEIZURES BROUGHT ON BY TRAUMA FROM THE SYSTEM PEOPLE THAT ARE MEANT TO TRUST WITH OUR LIVES…
ALSO IF WE GET PEOPLE HEALTHY THE ECONOMY WILL GROW…. HELL THE LOTTERY ITSSELF CAN BE USED TO HELP THE POOR AND SICK.. I PERSONALLY THINK THEY BUY THE MOST TICKETS.. PART OF THE TAXES ON CIGS AND ALCOHOL AND ANYTHING RELATED TO TOBACCO INCLUDING MARIJUANA SHOULD GO TO HELPING THE SICK INCLUDING MENTAL HEALTH.. THIS IS NOT ROCKET SCIENCE THIS IS A NATION RUNNI G ON COMPETITIONS AND GREED… AND WASTED TIME ENERGY AND MONEY SPENT ON REVENGE….. HELL THE MONEY SPENT INSULTING THE PRESIDENT ALONE WOULD PROBABLY PULL 5 STATES OUT OF POVERTY OR FEED A MILLION PEOPLE A WEEK..
MONEY IS NOT A PROBLEM THE SELFISH AMBITIONS ARE.
THE POOR AND SICK ARE ACCUSED OF SEEKING A HANDOUT. HOW ABOUT SOLUTIONS INSTEAD OF SWEEPING THEM UNDER THE RUG BECAUSE SOME PERSONALLY FEEL THEY WE ARE USELESS..
HMM MAYBE I SHOULD START A PAGE ON THINGS LIKE THIS. OR MAYBE I CAN GET A JOB WRITING… HEY UNIVERSE WHAT YOU THINK…

#TammyWhitakerLivingston😇❤️👑

#ChangeYourStinkingThinking😙❤️👑😇

#Royalsociety.. #beroyal. Com #Simple Reminders

Please keep me in your prayers The struggle is real,3steps forward 10 sometimes 15 back again. Why did God make me so dern caring yet a bitch. Ying & yang conflicts! I just wish pray for STRENGTH,, I WANT TO APPOLOGIZE ALSO,, I have to do me first, Butt i constantly fail at that! I so need want positive people in my life, ones who actually care and not just words. See I have this problem where I trust & get burned, I care & I get hurt, I am truthful and want to believe others are too, I am a happy person most of the time and will go above and beyond to show I care, Do unto others as you want others to do for & to you, Shit yea I am flawed, who isn’t ? ???? But damit I Cannot & will not sit and let anyone abuse or use me, to waste my time and energy, nor lie time after time, or I will Bite! I hate to be pushed to tears to be pushed to putting you in check, front street & if provoked held down or forced even emotionally yes I will defend myself. Abuse is abuse, NO MEANS NO,,,,I DONT CARE WHO YOU ARE OR YOUR STATUS ,FRIEND OR FAMILY I will protect myself any means neccessary. Dont push me into being that person or Im done. I have REACTED FOR YEARS BECAUSE OF ABUSE, I am very patient and kind caring and forgiving,praying always I recieve the same only because if your in my circle in my tribe its because I believe in you,,, you burn me 3 times I am done, It may hurt like hell to forget you ill pray for you but Never will I trust you again. Yeah Ill even forgive you but truth is I still believe your a sick individual that needs serious help so Ill pity you yes feel sorry for you but Hell no I will not help you no more.. Truth be known Ill curse the ground you walk on & trust me coming from me YOU CAN BE VERY VERY SURE YOU BROUGHT IT ON YOURSELF, So when the pity or concern or caring shuts down its because you they whomever is down right HATEFUL AND OR ABUSIVE,,,
I know from my lifes experiences only YOU can make the decision when enough is enough! My Life is a gift Daily and I want to give back daily to be grateful and if all I can give you is a hug or my time my ears my heart for Gods sake say Thankyou , pass on the love pass on the forgiveness pass on that very thing you so appreciate, Share a kind word, a hug, YOU ARE THE GIFT that keeps on Giving STOP GIVING TO THOSE THAT HURT YOU, PISS YOU OFF ON PURPOSE JUST TO GET A RISE OUT OF YOU AND TAKE THE TIME TO SHOW YOU CARE BY GIVING OTHERS EXSACTLY WHAT YOU WANT AND NEED FROM OTHERS, YES EVEN STRANGERS THE GIFT OF CARING AND SHARING WHEN EVER YOU CAN, NO ONE WANTS TO BE AROUND BITTERNESS BUT THOSE THAT ARE BITTER AND BACKSTABBING, JEALOUSY RUNS SO DEEP IN PEOPLE NOW A DAYS,,HATE IS THIER COMPASS,UNGRATEFUL SPOILED ASS USERS AND ABUSERS LOVE SUCKING UP JUST SO THEY CAN STAB YOU IN THE BACK WHEN YOU WALK AWAY, THOSE PEOPLE ARE HIDING BEHIND MASK,, MASK OF SHAME AND BITTERNESS, WAITING LIKE WOLVES TO DEVOUR ANYTHING GOOD IN YOU, BECAUSE THEY REFUSE TO GROW UP OR MOVE ON, THEY HATE YOU BECAUSE THEY HATE THEMSELVES, THEY REFUSE TO BE VULNERABLE BECAUSE OF FEAR,, FEAR SO BAD ALL THEY KNOW TO DO IS HURT YOU BEFORE YOU SUPPOSEDLY HURT THEM,, A FALSE SENSE OF SECURITY IS BEING EXSACTLY THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT THEY TRULLY WANT NEED DESIRE.. CONTROL.,,,, THE ONLY WAY I WILL EVER BE CONTROLLED IS ACTUALLY THROUGH LOVE& RESPECT FOR YOURSELF FIRST THEN ME OR OTHERS.
IF YOU CONTINUALLY ABUSE THOSE WHO LOVE YOU CARE FOR YOU YOU CAN BET YOUR SWEET ASS. YOU WILL CHASE YOUR TAIL 24/7.. SHAME WILL WRAP YOU SO TIGHT IN FEAR AND BITTERNESS LIKE A SCRATCH IN AN ALBUM, A MERRY GO ROUND THAT NEVER EVER STOPS ONLY TO SEE YOU TRY TO GET OFF AND LAUGH AT YOU IN THE MIRROR. THE ECHOS OF PAIN AND IS REPEATED SO MUCH IT BECOMES THE RINGING IN YOUR EAR,, WHO THE HELL YOU KIDDING? WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? WHAT MAKES YOU SO SPECIAL THAT YOU DARE WALK AROUND PISSING IN OTHERS JOY,,, OH YOU AGAIN? TRIGGERED LIKE A ANIMAL THAT HAS BEEN TORTURED DAY IN AND OUT,,, BUT IT IS YOU THAT IS DOING THE TORTURING, PRAYING HOPING MANIPULATING ONLY TO SAY IM SORRY KNOWING DAMN WELL YOU DONT WANT TO CHANGE , YOU WANT SOMETHING TO FORCE YOU TO DO IT… EITHER WAY KNOWING DANG WELL ITS JUST A REPEATED CON ACT TO SOOTHE YOU ENOUGH TO GET BY, KNOWING DARN WELL YOU AINT CHANGING NOTHING , YOUR SPOILED, FEARED NOT REVEARED OR RESPECTED, YOU CANT BULLY YOUR WAY OUT , YOU CANT BUY YOUR WAY OUT,, NOR LOVE YOUR WAY OUT,, YOU BEEN DIGGING THAT HOLE FOR WAY TO MANY YEARS,, ITS GONNA TAKE SWEAT , TEARS, AND SITTING WITH YOURSELF DAY AFTER DAY AFTER YEAR TO MAKE PROGRESS. YOU CAN EITHER START GIGGING YOUR WAY UP THE SIDE OF THAT DEEP WHOLE AND AMAZE YOURSELF EVEN WITH YOUR BLOODY FINGERNAILS, SORE AND POSSIBALLY PUSS OOZING FROM YOUR PALMS SCREAMING FROM DEEP WITHIN YOUR SOUL, THE PAIN SO UNBEARABLE YOU PUKE DAILY, ALL THE WHILE YOU KNOW WITH OUT DIGGING AND CLAWING , YOU WILL DROWN. KNOW THAT JUST WHEN YOU THINK YOU ARE ABOUT TO LEVEL UP IT WILL RAIN, IT WILL STORM , YOU WILL HAVE TO RIDE OUT THAT STORM.
DIGGING A WHOLE REPEATING THE SAME PATTERN DAY AFTER DAY YEAR AFTER YEAR THE WHOLE IS SO DEEP YOU CANNOT HEAR NOR BE HEARD TO BE RESCUED. YOU HAVENT LISTENED FOR ANYONE IN SO LONG WHEN YOU HEAR A VOICE AND YOUR SO SURE YOU KNOW THAT YOU KNOW YOU ARE CONVINCED THERE WILL NEVER BE ANOTHER THAT WILL HEAR YOU, YOUARE IN TOTAL CONVICTION THAT ONLY YOU ARE RIGHT OR ONLY YOUR VOICE CAN OR WILL BE HEARD, THE ECHO OF YOUR OWN VOICE IS NOW ALL YOU KNOW. YOU WILL IETHER SHUT DOWN YOUR OWN GOD GIVEN CONCIENCE BECAUSE YOU ARE CONVINCED YOUR GONNA DIE,FAIL REPEAT AND CONTINUALLY GIVE UP BELIVING THERE IS EVER GONNA BE ANYTHING BUT YOU THE DEEP DARK WHOLE AND THE RAIN. ALWAYS ONLY DIGGING TO GET OUT WHEN YOU REACH A CERTAIN TIME OF DAY, ONLY BECAUSE THAT TOO IS A GROVE YOU HAVE CREATED UNKNOWINGLY THROUGH, FIRST A THOUGHT NEED OR DESIRE,CONSTANT REPITITION,THEN PURE UNCONCIOUSNESS. NOT EVEN THE DAY YOU WERE BORN HAD NOT THINGS BEEN REPEATED OVER AND OVER AGAIN TO TRAING YOU MIND INTO REMEBERING.

GOOD OR BAD WANTED AND UNWANTED REPITIONS CREATE YOUR REALITY , HOW BAD DO YOU REALLY WANT IT? LIFE IS OFFERING UP DAILY CHOICES, IT HAS GIVEN YOU FREEWILL TO LIVE OR DIE. TRUE FREEDOM THAT ONLY YOUHAVE THE KEY TO UNLOCK, FREE TO CHOOSE FREE TO BELIEVE FREE TO FIGHT FREE TO LEARN ,FREE TO CHALLENGE ALL THE THOUGHTS THAT CROSS FROM LEFT TO RIGHT IN YOUR BRAIN…
REPLACING CONTINUAL THOUGHTS WITH A NEW OR REPEATED THOUGHT HAS AND WILL ALWAYS BE ONLY YOUR CHOICE, YOUR BATTLE AND ONLY YOUR STRUGGLE! ITS ALWAYS A THOUGHT, A WISH OR PRAYER THAT ONLY ACTION AND REACTION AND CONTINUAL ACTION OF REPEATING THE DESIRED THOUGHT WILL RECIEVE THE DESIRE. YOU CAN THINK ANYTHING YOU WANT BUT ONLY REPEATING THE THOUGHT PROCESS WILL YOUR DESIRE BE STRONGSTRONG ENOUGH TO PUSH THROUGH ANY AND ALL PAIN AND OBSTACLES (STORMS & UNSCENE TORNADOS, TO RECIEVE ANY AND REALLY ALL DESIRES OF THE HEART MIND AND SOUL…BATTLES ARE SIMPLY GROWING,REFUSING TO FIGHT IS DEATH !
GIVING INTO FEELINGS AND PAIN SOMETIMES ARE NEEDED FOR READJUSTING YOUR FOCUS,READJUSTING AND REINTERATING WHAT IS NEEDED TO GAIN BETTER FOOTAGE. FEELINGS ARE SO MISLEADING. LIKE PAIN IS PHANTOM TO A AMPUTEE. THOUGH YOU REMEMBER WHAT IT FELT LIKE DOESNT MAKE IT REAL. ONLY YOUR MIND AND THE REPEATED THOUGHTS AND ACTIONS OR REACTIONS ACTUALLY BRING IT TO PASS. IF YOU THINK IT IS YOU WILL ACT ACCORDINGLY AND CONTINUE TO REACT BY REPITION.

THOUGHTS CAN BE SO RANDOM AND VERY FAST. SO FAST YOU ACTUALLY DONT REMEBER HAVING THE THOUGHT, YET SPEAKING IT OUT LOUD BEGINS LIKE THE NEEDLE ON THE RCORD PRODUCING SOUND. QUICK AS HEARTBEAT DECISSIONS ARE MADE . REAL OR UNREAL ? FANTASY OR NOT, WE CONTINUELLY ARE SEARCHING FOR FEELING GOOD ,COMFORTABLE, AT EASE. THEREFORE WHEN THE UNWANTED SURFICES WE ARE DRAWN AWAY. FIGHT OR FLIGHT KICKS IN. MAKING CONTINUALL ASSESMENTS FOR RETURNING TO COMFORT ZONE OR CONTINUING TO RUN. ONCE THE MIND FEELS NO PRESSURE SAFETY IS NO LONGER NEEDED, YET CONTINUALL REPITITION CREATES A CONCERN FOR SAFETY, CONTINUAL FOCUS UPON SAFETY CREATES UNCERTAINTY, CONTINUAL UNCERTAINTY CREATES FEAR WHICH CREATES DOUBT.

THE LONGER SOMETHING IS REPEATED IT IS FORMATTING A CLEAR PATH BACK TO THE INFORMATIION. FEELINGS HOWEVER ARE ALSO GAGING RESPONSES FROM WITHIN. IF YOU TELL YOURSELF CONTINUALLY TO FEEL THIS OR THAT ENOUGH TIMES THE PATH IS SO WELL KNOWN FEELINGS ARE GENERATED BY THE REPITION OF . EVER HEARD OF MIND GAMES OR MIND OVER MATTER? IT TAKES TIME AND CONSTANT FOCUS, FOR FEELINGS TO BE OPEN TO NEW SUGGESTINGS REPEATING THE OUTCOME IS DONE UNCONCIOUSLY. YET IF YOU DENY THE OUTCOME OR RATHER SAY SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FEELINGS WILL BE PLEADING FOR YOU TO REJECT THE UNKOWN UNTIL IT BECOMES KNOWN AND REPITION RECORDS THE NEW PATH TO NEW TERRITORY AND FEELINGS ARE COMPASSING YOUR BELIEFS AND THE MEMORIES ARE STORED FOR FURTHER EVALUATION…
SINGING A SONG YOU LOVE OVER AND OVER BRINGS GOOD FEELINGS, YET THE SAME SONG HEARD WHILE GETTING INTO A CAR ACCIDENT MAY NOW BRING SHEAR FEAR TERROR AND PAIN. TO CHANGE THE FEELINGS BACK TO GOOD TAKES COURAGE STAMINA AND REPITION AND CREATING A NEW PATH FOR FEELINGS TO FOLLOW … PRAYING FOR SOMETHING TO CHANGE ONLY BRINGS IT TO PASS THROUGH CONSCIOUSLY FOCUSING & REPEATING IT IS POSSBLE. RATHER YOUR FEELINGS ARE CORROPERATING OR NOT REPEATING THE DESIRED RESULTS YOU ANSWER THE PRAYER THROUGH DOUBTS OR BELIEFS, OVERCOMING YOUR FEELING THAT CREATED THE DOUBTS IN THE BEGINNING BECOMES THE NOW KNOWN TERRITORY AND SEEKING CONTINUALLY THE MIND FOR THE THOUGHTS TO LINE UP,KINDA LIKE SITTING AT A POKER MACHINE PULLING THE LEVER UNTIL THE SYMBLES MATCH UP,, PLAYING MIND GAMES IS JUST SO. BELUEVING IS RECIEVING THROUGH A FAME OF MIND OVER FEELINGS ,,WHICH IS REPEATED MORE THE OLD OR THE NEW, THE FEELINGS OR THE THOUGHT. YOU PLAY LONG ENOUGH YOU WILL WIN. SAME AS IF YOU RUN OUT OF COINS YOU WILL WALK AWAY EMPTY HANDED.YET IF THE COINS ARE CONTINUALLY BEING SUPPLIED AND YOU CONTINUE THE ACTION OF INCERTAING A COIN THE WINNING IS THE ADDICTION BECAUSE OF THE FEELINGS. RECIEVING THE DESIRED FEELINGS YOU CONTINUE TO PLAY,YET IF YOU QUIT, YOU HAVE WHAT YOU HAVE, HOWEVER THE AMOUNT. THE DECISSION TO CONTINUE MAY OR MAY NOT GET THE DESIRED RESULTS UNTIL HOURS POSSIBALLY DAYS. BUT IT WILL HAPPEN EVENTUALLY , TIME RESTRAINTS DIRECT THE ULTIMATE FEELINGS. SAY AN HOUR AGO YOU WERE EXCITED,GIDDY, NOW 3 HRS LATER ,4 SHOTS OF LIQUOR YOUR HUNGRY AND STILL LOOKING FOR THAT SAME FEELING,INSTEAD YOUR DOWN TO YOUR LAST COIN, DO YOU STOP, OR DO YOU PROCESS YOUR FEELINGS AND THEYRE NOT LINING UP WITH YOUR THOUGHTS, WILL YOU WINN? ONLY IF YOU KEEP ON PLAYING.

AS I GIVE MANY EXSAMPLES FOR CLARITY AS THOUGHT PROCESS IS HAPENING AND FEELINGS WILL ARISE, YOUR INTEREST YOUR DESIRE FOCUS AND ACTION WILL DETERMINE YOUR RESULTS,,, YOU ARE HUMAN , A SORT OF MACHINE IF YOU WILL, IT IS FOCUS DESIRE AND DETERMINATION THAT WILL ALWAYS DETERMINE THE OUTCOME .. HOW DEEP IS YOUR WHOLE? HOW MANY YEARS HAS IT BEEN THAT YOU REPEATED THE SAME THOUGHTS ACTIONS AND FEELINGS? DO YOU FEEL LIKE A BROKEN RECORD? DO YOU THINK YOU ARE READY FOR THE TRASH? IS YOUR MIND WANDERING PROFUSLY FOR DIFFERENT ANSWERS? ARE YOUR FEELINGS DIRECTING YOUR THOUGHT OR THOUGHTS DIRECTING YOUR FEELINGS? GET OUT YOUR SHOVEL PREPARE FOR YOUR JOURNEY,,GEAR UP WITH ALL THE TOOLS YOU NEED TO FOCUS ESPECIALLY THROUGH THE STORMS ,THE RIVER OF TEARS WILL RISE YOUR FEELINGS WIL RUN TO AND FRO SEEKING OUT A KNOWN PATH TO BRING CONFORT TO THE UNCOMFORTABLE. THE DARKNESS WILL ARISE THE SUN WILL RISE, CONTINUALLY REPITIONS WILL CREATE NEW PATHES IF ONLY ALL WORK TOGETHER CREATING AND SHIFTING AS THOUGH ON A BED OF ROCKS OR PEBBLES, THE SURFICE ALWAYS ADJUSTING UNDER FOOT THE DESIRED POSITION, THE DESIRED FEELING OF COMFORT SEEKING, BUT IN ORDER TO COMPLETELY DECIEVE AND RECIEVE A NEW OUTCOME,THE DESIRE MUST BE STRONGER,WHILE FOCUSING ON THE UNKWON DESIRES AND RESULTS NEVER BEING IN STONE ABSOLUTE CHANGE IS POSSIBLE IF YOU BELIEVE ITS POSSIBLE, IT IS….MIND OVER MATTER, THINKING UNTIL THE FEELINGS NO LONGER STOP YOU BEFORE YOUR ACTIONS AUTOMATICALLY OUT NUMBER THE RESULTS OF UNWANTED. SUCCESS TAKES A LIFETIME OF TRAINING AND RETRAINING. ALWAYS KNOWING LIFE ISNIT FOR QUITTERS . ONLY READJUSTERS AND WILLING TO SUFFER THE UNKNOWN TERRITORY FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE BEGINNING OVER & OVER CREATING NEW PATHS TO PODER UNTIL THE DESIRE IS MET CONTINUALLY AND CONCIOUSLY. NOTING UNCONCOIUS BEHAVIOR WHILE THOUGH MAY BE DESIRED FOR A TIME, ALSO A WARNING CHANGE IS NEEDED TO CONTINUE THE DESIRED COURSE TO THE NEW COMFORT LEVEL. NEVER EVER IS THE LEARNING PROCESS OVER . ONLY THE CURRENT DESIRED COURSE IN THE SCHOOL OF LIFE. A CONTINUAL PROCESS AS YOU AGE AND GROW,FOCUS AND DETERMINATION & HONESTLY SEEKING ONES HEART, MIND & SOULS DESIRES, ONLY TO REACH A NEW LEVEL AND DESIRE. AND YOU THOUGHT VIDEO GAMES WERE CHALLENGING! LIFE IS CONTINUALLY GIVING AND RECIEVING. ENJOY THE JOURNEY LIFE GIVES YOU WHAT YOU YOU DESIRE… HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT? YOU CANNOT FAIL , YOU CANNOT QUIT, YOU. ARE ALWAYS CHOOSING THE OUT COME . EITHER THINKING OR FEELING YOUR WAY THROUGH,GOOD OR BAD HAPPY OR SAD REPEATING OR CREATING NEW. ALWAYS YOUR CHOICE RATHER CONCIOUSLY OR NOT… IT IS WHAT YOU SAY IT IS .

WHAT IS IT YOU REALLY WANT.

Decisions are choices you choose to believe even if temporarily

Why is it people try to make you feel bad when you are battling pain or having a really bad day? Why is it Happy people in general are not allowed to be down or sick or weak or unsure or confused? Get Real..NO ONE IS PERFECT NOR HAS ALL THE ANSWERS..Experience is your best teacher
DOWN DAYS ARE FOR LEARNING & EXPERIENCING.
FOR SELF AWARENESS & CHANGE.. A FEELING OF BEING UNBALANCED.

Always willing to learn more about yourself in the now and not relying on past experiences keeps you in a constant forward motion. Change cannot happen if you are always looking backwards for answers to todays problems or emotional feelings that surface. Some with warning some without. Being aware of your emotions and really your health helps nip problems in the bud and leads you to the path you may have been neglecting. …’You’…
Life happens daily we all have the same amount of hours and minutes in a day. Yet or wants needs and personal desires are really the challenge. Exspectations and Comparing each other derails us from the very beginning thus leading us into unneccary start overs concistant failures and feeling we are or will or have already failed.
Staying in the NOW is the only way we can face any new moment in time with clarity even when things dont look clear you can bet how you react to any given moment in time is a Decission. You can be clear in making a decission even if its wrong you can be open to the lesson that will be learned. Now is New. Second by second you have a choice to stay miserable or a victim or a choice to be a Victor. Make everyday a Purpose filled Life by actually making choices on purpose. Every moment that passes is a moment in your life that is wasted or actually unaware of or is conciencely watched for in hopes of noticing the outcome it has brought in hopes of getting through something you feared. Leading your life by fear or choosing to accept the outcome of choices that you made that are meant to teach you not threaten you.
Making wrong decissions does not in any way make you a failure at making decissions. Failure at making decissions leads you down the road of being a VICTIM to anything that happens..
Being aware of this alone can lead you out of your self imposed pity party.
I believe life doesnt happen to you,choices(results) are happening. Learning from them and continuing in the motion of forward happens rather good or bad decissions are made. Being responsible for what happens from our decissions keeps us in the driving seat not a passenger. Things are not always what they may seem. Just your attitude may be cyphering the message you recieve. For instance if your already in a bad mood and are asked to take a vacation your bad attitude will determine what the word vacation means to you and only you have the power to destort it or recieve it as a good or bad thing…
Conversations are shorter and shorter these days. As if tomarrow is gonna have more time in it. Today is the day to Live in the Now. Now is all you will ever have. Deciding and making decissions are your only control. Life is not controlled by actions but controlled be decissions. Those made .those not made. Those that are no longer yours to make.
These decissions can destroy your future if you make them by others oppinions or making them to please others without completely acknowledging you are making them by choice and concideration of the outcome. Are you concidering all parties or are you just reacting from past decissions and not conscientiously making a decission from right here right now..
We are trained to be on the go and make quick decisions all through life . Being tested on speed and accuracy. So when a importantant or emotion problem exsist we feel we have to react the way we have been trained. And trained for what? You can major in taxes and make health decissions the same as you would a tax problem. You dont go to a bartender for bank account advice nor to a banker for health advise and so on. This may seem so cliche’ or so simple why even mention it. So many people are so use to things beibg and doing the same way the never ever even think they can be anything different. Thier norm is so habitual thought is never a part of the process. Thinking and actually making a decission for some is non exsistant. They have been told what to do for so long the only decission the ever make is will I make a decision to be my own person today..Yet most dont because its change and change is hard or the unknown scares the hell out of them Fear runs thier lives..Keeping one uneducated keeps one on bondage..Making the first decission can be so overwhelming it can leave them stuck and mentally impaired.
Decissions are the beginning of Self. Self is aware of decissions to be made. Wisdom to Look within and challenge the unknown, to challenge any fear within is Living you Life On Purpose. Feel the fear. Challenge your self daily in decissions you made about yourself. Are they even true or are the beliefs that have been spewed at you your whole exsistance. Get to know yourself personally with out all the titles good or bad. Who are you? Without the job family friends money ect ect..JUST YOU.. Are you a happy person or are you a nobody without others to influence? Right here right Now who are you? Who do you want to be? Its ok everyday your emotions may alter that answer but asking it daily may help keep you aware of all the possibilities and Aware of who you are at the core.
Me my core is Love and spreading Sunshine has always been who I truly am.
Forgiving myself for decissions Ive made along the way keeps me always humble and willing to learn. Accepting some things is my downfall. Like accepting. That dern word handicapped Yet like all things Repetition engraves but doent make it true 😉😬😁😝Why is it people try to make you feel bad when you are battling pain and really bad days? Why is it Happy people in general are not allowed to be down or sick or weak or unsure or confused? Get Real..NO ONE IS PERFECT NOR HAS ALL THE ANSWERS..Experience is your best teacher
DOWN DAYS ARE FOR LEARNING & EXPERIENCING.
FOR SELF AWARENESS & CHANGE.. A FEELING OF BEING UNBALANCED.

Always willing to learn more about yourself in the now and not relying on past experiences keeps you in a constant forward motion. Change cannot happen if you are always looking backwards for answers to todays problems or emotional feelings that surface .Some with warning some without. Being aware of your emotions and really your health helps nip problems in the bud and leads you to the path you may have been neglecting. …’You’…
Life happens daily we all have the same amount of hours and minutes in a day. Yet or wants needs and personal desires are really the challenge. Exspectations and Comparing each other derails us from the very beginning thus leading us into unneccary start overs concistant failures and feeling we are or will or have already failed.
Staying in the NOW is the only way we can face any new moment in time with clarity even when things dont look clear you can bet how you react to any given moment in time is a Decission. You can be clear in making a decission even if its wrong you can be open to the lesson that will be learned. Now is New. Second by second you have a choice to stay miserable or a victim or a choice to be a Victor. Make everyday a Purpose filled Life by actually making choices on purpose. Every moment that passes is a moment in your life that is wasted or actually unaware of or is conciencely watched for in hopes of noticing the outcome it has brought in hopes of getting through something you feared. Leading your life by fear or choosing to accept the outcome of choices that you made that are meant to teach you not threaten you.
Making wrong decissions does not in any way make you a failure at making decissions. Failure at making decissions leads you down the road of being a VICTIM to anything that happens..
Being aware of this alone can lead you out of your self imposed pity party.
I believe life doesnt happen to you,choices(results) are happening. Learning from them and continuing in the motion of forward happens rather good or bad decissions are made. Being responsible for what happens from our decissions keeps us in the driving seat not a passenger. Things are not always what they may seem. Just your attitude may be cyphering the message you recieve. For instance if your already in a bad mood and are asked to take a vacation your bad attitude will determine what the word vacation means to you and only you have the power to destort it or recieve it as a good or bad thing…
Conversations are shorter and shorter these days. As if tomarrow is gonna have more time in it. Today is the day to Live in the Now. Now is all you will ever have. Deciding and making decissions are your only control. Life is not controlled by actions but controlled be decissions. Those made .those not made. Those that are no longer yours to make.
These decissions can destroy your future if you make them by others oppinions or making them to please others without completely acknowledging you are making them by choice and concideration of the outcome. Are you concidering all parties or are you just reacting from past decissions and not conscientiously making a decission from right here right now..
We are trained to be on the go and make quick decisions all through life . Being tested on speed and accuracy. So when a importantant or emotion problem exsist we feel we have to react the way we have been trained. And trained for what? Can you major in taxes and make health decissions the same as you would a tax problem. You dont go to a bartender for bank account advice nor to a banker for health advise and so on. This may seem so cliche’ or so simple why even mention it. So many people are so use to things being and doing the same way they never ever even think they can be anything different. Thier norm is so habitual thought’ is never a part of the process. Thinking and actually making a decission for some is non exsistant. They have been told what to do for so long the only decission they ever make is will I make a decision to be my own person today or what was I told to do or think..Yet most dont because its change and change is hard or the unknown scares the hell out of them. Fear runs thier lives..Keeping one uneducated keeps one in bondage..Making the first decission can be so overwhelming it can leave them stuck and mentally impaired.
Decissions are the beginning of Self. Self is aware of decissions to be made. Wisdom to Look within and challenge the unknown, to challenge any fear within is Living you Life On Purpose. Feel the fear. Challenge your self daily in decissions you made about yourself. Are they even true or are the beliefs that have been spewed at you your whole exsistance. Get to know yourself personally with out all the titles good or bad. Who are you? Without the job family, friends, money ectb, ect..

JUST YOU..

Are you a happy person or are you a nobody without others to influence? Right here right Now who are you? Who do you want to be? Its ok everyday your emotions may alter that answer but asking it daily may help keep you aware of all the possibilities and Aware of who you are at the core.
Me my core is Love and spreading Sunshine has always been who I truly am.
Forgiving myself for decissions Ive made along the way keeps me always humble and willing to learn. Accepting some things is my downfall. Like accepting. That dern word handicapped Yet like all things Repetition engraves but doesn’t make it true 😉😬😁😝